im sorry.. i am.. my bad..

im so so so so so sorry for nt being wit u when u nid someone so badly )=
i knw i suck as a besty )=
v're like soooooo freaking close during form 1! hang out tgt~ tel secrets to one another~ have fun n everythg! but nw.. everythg chg..
since form2, cz of being in diff classes, our topic been lesser n lesser.. my bad.. im nt someone hu knws hw to find topic .__. i suck in it!! D: n diff class diff story.. everythg diff.. tried to talk to u bout stuff but u were bored n werent happie.. i tried to cheer u up but i failed to.. try to chg topic but u werent in de mood i understands why.. so wad i can only do for u is nt to let ppl take advantage of u or bully u.. maybe cz of my over reacting freaks u out n make thgs worst? u started nt to tel me anythg.. slowly slowly.. v've became strangers to each other.. even if v c each other, i jst manage to say a "Hi" only.. n u replied a "Hi" n continue talking wit other ppl.. im glad tat u werent lonely anymore (= gud job gurl! ;) u've gt manii frens now ^^
im sorry for making u feeling left out.. u might think me n him tgt, u shouldnt interupt but u've forgotten smtg~ BiZ!! remember?! 3 tgt all in 1!! or is it me nt bothering u? did i? if i did, im sorry agn.. but i'd try all my best to include u both in my live tgt! >< seems tat i've failed terribly.. )= haihh..
did u notice tat i've kinda stop telling u secret since den? nt tat i dont want to tel u but.. i'd thought about it.. but even wit de 3 of us, i would like some secret between me n him.. all those are jst bout me n him.. if it includes others, i've would have tell u.. im willing to tel u! like wad happen today~ anythg happie or sad~ mayb nid a shoulder to cry on~ till one day.. i dun rmb clearly wad happen but tat time u were hypering~ (de normal sott u who likes to forget everythg bad tat had happen by hypering) i've told u nt to tel anyone bout it.. (dun rmb wad was it) n too bad.. u were hypering tat time so, u jst spill everythg out like almost infront of everyone .__. (like someone drunk dy)so, since tat day, im starting to have fobia >< i dont dare to tel u so much anymore.. scare anytime u hyper ni den spill out agn den doom doom doom.. so tats why.. if u wanna blame me for being stingy, its alrite.. i do agree cz i am..
hmm.. i do hope u'll open up to someone one day.. i mean choose someone hu understand u. cz u're kinda hard to understand. .__." nt hard actually, is jst tat u keep everythg bad everythg sad way way way down de bottom of ur heart.. u dun reali need to tell everythg out.. but jst dont put a mask on ur face.. its verii tiring )= u've been doing it for so long.. arent u tired? >< i knw u dont want to do it but force to cz no one understands u n ppl will ask "r u alrite?" this tat this tat.. *annoying* so.. i hope u'll find tat someone as fast as possible! it doesnt need to be a guy ya knw.. it can be yong le or other ppl u reali trust (= so jia you jia you! (=
hmm.. its been a long long time since i've been talking so much with u cz normally u gt manii other ppl hu gt more topic to talk to. its on a saturday~ was verii sick tat day >< im glad tat u were still concern bout me (= i reali am! thank u so much ^^ if i werent sick tat day, i would love to shop wit u til sunway close! :D but sadly, dint gt de chance to do so.. maybe nxt time.. i do believe v can hang out tgt one day ((=







i've gt a wish here.. can count as a burfday wish (= i wish to be like last time! everythg v do v do it tgt! any troubles u cant solve, v can solve it out tgt n i promise u this time i will calm down n talk properly nt like last time >