Wat did i do wrong?? i am always blur here..

i hate staying at home!!
i hate weekend!!
i luv the time at sch.. but i hate it whenever i come home..

guess y i hate it??
everytime i come back i sure need 2 fight wan..
n everytime i'm the wan hu ends up getting hurts..
wat nxt?? hide in my room n cry all alone
while u guys hv fun downstairs talking n watch tv..

i HATE it when i come down 2 watch tv...
u r gonna say tat if i stay up there down here is peace
n when i go 2 the back 2 use the com u gonna say i whole day 'eat' fb
i start arguing n u say i was jst jk ni la.. jk oso cannot meh??
do u knw how much it hurts anot???
u all nvr feel it b4..
u all NVR nw wat it feels lyk..

sometimes i jst ran back to my 'paradise'
n sometimes i jst go 2 my 'heaven' here..

i was juz listening 2 common dinominator by jusinn bieber
when she start asking me to find smtg
i knw d..
bt i wuz jst sitting there cuz im gonna find it later
n then u come n criticize me
WAT ON EARTH DID I DO WRONG??
my mind was jst blank!!
i dint even do anythg wrong n nw ur criticizing me n scold me
still say wat: i ask u question u must ans yes or no
wth u wan me ans u??
u r scolding me n nt asking me a ques n u wan me 2 ans??
hw can i ask u??
i argued back u say is the same meaning
COME ON LA!!
use ur brain n think oso nt logic la..
still say wat same meaning.. ==

i was so pissed off!!
ish!!

then later u went up...
n nt long later u come down again..
u asked me wat time i wan 2 off the com??
i stay still n did nt ans
u go on n say: she say u mst off the com by 12 n nw wat u doing is kacauing me.
i wuz thinking myself..
*come on.. she dint even say a single word. u r the 1 hu wan me 2 off nt her. n wat i doing nw hw 2 kacau u le?? u r gonna be upstair n im at downstair. hw 2 kacau le lyk tat??haizz.. i reli dunno wat 2 say 2 u d..
always the thg nt logic wan u wei le bao hu mian zi ba the thg twist n twist until logic *logic 4 u urself ni.. nt ME!!*
n then, u went on scolding me..
u r, change since i gav u the com
nw whole day wan ur frens ni, dunwan us d
nxt time i mst set timing 4 u 2-3 hours ni

i was DARN angry!!
y dun u think y wil i turn until lyk tat??
hu make me turn until lyk tat 1??
u all la
luckily i gt this com...
if nt smtg wil happen d..
u all knw hw sad i was anot??
NO
c??
say if gt prob can discuss with us
hw do u expect me 2 discuss with u all this way??

i reli dunno hw much longer i can stand this..
it all happens when i was mature..

after writing, i feel much more better nw..

its late, gtg..
as always....
night....

with luv...
Jinyee <3